2018 Here I Come

This past two years I learned a lot, and quite love my learn.

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It starts two years ago, there was a socking experience both in my professional and personal life.

I was crash enough to realize that It also a learning for me.

After all these years, now I know why it should happened.

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As simply as I have to experience and learn new things in the new playground to gain more understanding about what life is.

In this new place I learned more about human, how they think, what they think, why they think of what they think ( is this sentence is grammar correct ? LOL) , how and why they change. I learned all this kind things in here and this is so interesting learning for me, something new that I never experience before and it make me more think deep about life itself and its purpose.

I love this learning so much, It was not only made me more closer to God but also made me closer with my family and my friends.

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And for these two years.

I realize that I live my life not for myself, I live for God by serve others.

To Fulfil my purpose, I have to know Him who give me this life.

To know Him better, I must learned from His word and also get understanding from whatever that He gave me to experience.

This made me more conscious and eager to finish my bible reading, fasting, went to church, get along with my small group and my church friends more.

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I also realize that my support system not only my family who always stand by in their position but also my friends.

I am blessed enough to have a very kind, loving and supporting best friends ever in my life.

I don’t have a lot of friends, since I love to work and sometimes forget to have fun with others.

But this past two years, God really love me by sending a lot of good friends in my life.

-        I have friends who always there for me in her place. Whenever I need her, she always there.

Even though I send her message in the middle of the night (mostly when I got confused wiith life), she always there. And this is her main advise “Vidi, after all these years, we already seen God goodness in our life, just trust Him”

-        I have friends who really care with me, keep me in their thought and always worry with me (T_T I don’t know what I did that I deserve you guys, hiks). And I don’t know why, but whatever I share always not good news, hiks.

-        I encounter with my long-lost friends. It always good to met your long friends, they know you best and have big tolerance for you when you make a mistake. I love each one of you guys. Thank you for caring and loving me in a weird way. Once second home, always second home !

-        I met again with my another long-lost friends who really care with my growth, It’s really good for myself.

-        My crazy and weird friends, who really annoying to write. LOL. I love both of you, even sometimes I don’t understand you.

-        I also met new people who know become my friends. They are the best gift that God sent to me for these two years. Lot of talk, lot of laugh, lot of learned together.

These people are some of the highlight of my journey. I write them in here, so that I will never forget everyone who love me just the way I am. And do whatever I can to pay back their love to them and to others, so can others can feel their love too.

I also learned some people that I know changed, very different with their value and what they talk.

Power, Money and thirsty for existence made some people change.

But I believe deep down inside their heart, someone that I know still there.

No matter what happened, I understand your decision and will always support you just like your shadow (well… I learned loyalty from some of the best person that I know).

But just someone said to me “some people, not finished with their self yet”. What we have to do, that we have to understand. Well we have different lesson tho.

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The most important part in this past two years was My Family.

They are always there, despite all my annoying and selfish acts.

Every time the disaster comes, my Mom and My sister keep remind me.

My mom: “Vidi., we know God never leave this family. From the start He always with us and no matter what happen He will always with you.”

My Sis : “Vidi, no matter your decision, I know you will succeed on it, Because God will bless you.

Well, I don’t need a lot in life, I just need them.

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To be honest, I don’t have a solid plan for 2018.

Very strange for someone who really ambitious and always have plan in life like me.

But, this past two years, with all Bad and Good times, Quite change my perspective about life.

I don’t measure my success in life by material anymore.

I already have all in life : God, family and friends.

They’re enough for me.

I want to spend this 2018 only with them and give my best for them.

With God in my side and my family and friends who support me on my back, it’s more than enough.

Start a new journey with new perspective.

I am so excited for what happen in the future.

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I hope I am fighting a good fight.