34 Days of Praying and Fasting

I've been committed to have a 34 Days Praying and Fasting after watch Rick Warren's Preach.
He teach to pray three times a day (just like Daniel) and read devotional.
By read devo or read/hear word of God, you will know what's God's answer for your prayer.
Fasting only one times when you start this commitment as a symbol that you're serious to God.
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I created my own program for 34 days, just to challenge my self, nyehehe :
- Fasting (12 hours in the daytime), 2 days a week.
I should fast for others not only for myself
- Praying 3 times a day for others (6am, 12pm, 10pm)
I have list of friends that I have to pray, 5 different friends for different prayer times.
So in total I have 15 friends that I've to pray for.
- Read devotional/bible in the morning and night
After read it, I have to write it on my diary, so that I will know my spiritual progress
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and... I HAVE TO DO THESE FOR 34 DAYS.
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well...
this is not a success story.
I failed on the 26 days (today is the 32 days)
well..
to be honest...
because I really missed it, .
I forgot exactly when I failed.
LOL
mmm...
It might be on the 20 days.
LOL
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IT WAS HARD
VERY HARD
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Really amazed with people who can pray 5 times a day and fast for 30 days
I know some people who could do that and I really really admire them.

Because I already experienced it by myself, and I could not do that.

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Welll this is my lesson from this experience :

1. Control My Body

Seriously it need huge commitment and discipline to pray exactly at same time everyday.
I amazed with everyone who can pray 5 times a day at same time, everyday.....
How can they can defeat their self.....

Hiks.. I still can not do this...

I always.. like literally always.. forget or intentionally forget to pray.
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To reduce the guilty feeling...
I will accumulate my prayer in one time only.... at least I pray for my friends...
nyehehehhehe

I learned that I can not fast two or three days straight.
My body will be very weak...
and since I didn't take my yoga class almost a year,
LOL
I don't have strength and literally don't have muscle..
bahahhaha

I think I need a lot of time to be like everyone who can fast for 40 days ...
Hiks...

2. Control My Mind

It was really hard to pray for others when you need a prayer.
So.. I need to control my mind to not selfish toward my self.

3. Bad Things always happened when you decide to do a Good Things

Well..
Just like in the movie... It always happened

But my message through this circumstances is TRUST GOD AND DO GOOD
so... I'm trying my best to not stop and get tired do good things

"no eyes has seen, no ear has heard, and no mind has imagined what God has prepared
for those who love him" 1 cor 2;9

so.. the conclusion..
I think 2018 want me to learn
to control my mind and my body (SIGH),
to generous with everything I have, not only material, but also time, prayer and encouragement
to depend and trust God more

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This is my face for my self.

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