First Time Birthday Without Papi

well..
I dont know how to express it.
there is a lot happen in early of this year.

my papi has left me at 8 march 2014.
he left really suddenly, (i still can not said that he was dead, i can not)

well it still remain in my memory so deep T.T

the day before, 7 march
at 9 pm i pick up my mom at mall after she done her massage, before i pick up my mom, my pap asked me to transfer money to his account. at first i refuse it, because i think i will forget to tranfer if He gave me the money since i will tranfer it in the morning. but my pap said "ur mom will know..." with a sad face..
haha so i take the money, and promise to tranfer it.
i thank God, i obey His last wish. or i will feel sorry for the rest of my life.
then, after pick up my mom, me and mom dinner at bakut teh near our house,
and we take home some bakut teh to home for our papi.
my mom resist it because she think that colesterol my papi will increase with it, but i said that he will eat it in small portion, so that u dont have to worry, and the bakut teh will make my papi

every time i close my eyes, i always see the doctor push the heart of my father

#latepost #maybesomedayIcanfinishthispostwithoutcrying